Since my divorce I have had a beautiful text from my eldest son that got me through a lot. "Love you tons". I would send that back to him. He was the only one I sent that to until recently. Recently I realized his words. He is the owner of this by far, and I … Continue reading Psychotic Love vs Love You Tons vs Love You Very Much
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First Borns Genocide
Yikes. I know it's Christmas and I should have better thoughts. But to me Christmas hasn't been Christmas for many years. And even more so less when I lost my eldest nephew who was so wonderful and still always so missed and was so the rock that kept us together. I hate to say this, … Continue reading First Borns Genocide
Mom, Why Can’t You Hear Me? I love you so much!!
I have played this conversation with you Mom for years. For approximately 15 years. Since you told me I should have stayed with him. No matter what. Tonight I need purge in words why I have not been able to talk to you, nor speak my speech which will follow. Mom, I can’t talk to … Continue reading Mom, Why Can’t You Hear Me? I love you so much!!
