Since my divorce I have had a beautiful text from my eldest son that got me through a lot. "Love you tons". I would send that back to him. He was the only one I sent that to until recently. Recently I realized his words. He is the owner of this by far, and I … Continue reading Psychotic Love vs Love You Tons vs Love You Very Much
I remember the first time he fell deep in love with someone else. It was weird. I had a 2, 4 and 8 year old... Lots of songs went through my head. I will share a few. But this one I love so much. Possibly because 15 years after my divorce, and after our 10th … Continue reading Glad I didn’t Know
This is going to sound weird. I have, for the first time in my life, a tomato plant. It's a topsy turvy one, but it was beautiful to watch grow from a small plant to a huge one. I didn't anticipate much, as I don't have a green thumb like my mother. But, I did … Continue reading Removing the Negative
I love poems. I have written many. But this weekend going through some papers I wrote while I was married to the man I can't hate, but feel there was a great deal of healing after I left, this was truly a reason. I wrote this for him to read. I was hoping he would … Continue reading How Can Someone Make You Feel Like Writing This?
Psychotic love. What does it entail really? Too much love for family, for you children, for your parents. Funny enough Psychotic Love doesn't seem to me to transfer to all of my siblings. I have one sister that you can deny, hurt her, almost kill her, treat her like she is a nobody, but still … Continue reading How can someone who hates me be forgiven?
I have played this conversation with you Mom for years. For approximately 15 years. Since you told me I should have stayed with him. No matter what. Tonight I need purge in words why I have not been able to talk to you, nor speak my speech which will follow. Mom, I can’t talk to … Continue reading Mom, Why Can’t You Hear Me? I love you so much!!