Since my divorce I have had a beautiful text from my eldest son that got me through a lot. "Love you tons". I would send that back to him. He was the only one I sent that to until recently. Recently I realized his words. He is the owner of this by far, and I … Continue reading Psychotic Love vs Love You Tons vs Love You Very Much
I remember the first time he fell deep in love with someone else. It was weird. I had a 2, 4 and 8 year old... Lots of songs went through my head. I will share a few. But this one I love so much. Possibly because 15 years after my divorce, and after our 10th … Continue reading Glad I didn’t Know
This is going to sound weird. I have, for the first time in my life, a tomato plant. It's a topsy turvy one, but it was beautiful to watch grow from a small plant to a huge one. I didn't anticipate much, as I don't have a green thumb like my mother. But, I did … Continue reading Removing the Negative
I love poems. I have written many. But this weekend going through some papers I wrote while I was married to the man I can't hate, but feel there was a great deal of healing after I left, this was truly a reason. I wrote this for him to read. I was hoping he would … Continue reading How Can Someone Make You Feel Like Writing This?
Psychotic love. What does it entail really? Too much love for family, for you children, for your parents. Funny enough Psychotic Love doesn't seem to me to transfer to all of my siblings. I have one sister that you can deny, hurt her, almost kill her, treat her like she is a nobody, but still … Continue reading How can someone who hates me be forgiven?
I have played this conversation with you Mom for years. For approximately 15 years. Since you told me I should have stayed with him. No matter what. Tonight I need purge in words why I have not been able to talk to you, nor speak my speech which will follow. Mom, I can’t talk to … Continue reading Mom, Why Can’t You Hear Me? I love you so much!!
I've been divorced for 13 years now to my first love. 13 years and I still have dreams about him. I have dated a couple of times, and one was very special to me. He's still my best friend. Another passed away. But I don't dream about them at all. I only dream about my … Continue reading When do the dreams end?
I write here about spychotic love and the different levels of psychotic love. One can be food too. My mom was a great cook. She also wanted to make sure we were respectful enough to finish everything on our plate when we were young. She's not like that anymore... much. But an interesting thought. I … Continue reading Love and Wonders of Psychotic Love with Food
Okay, so I am reading an amazing book called Taming Your Gremlin by Rick Carson. Amazing because it really opens up your mind to realizing the voices that have been built up in your head. Rick calls them Gremlins. I like that. I loved the movie. My favorite part of the movie thought was when … Continue reading Meet My Gremlin!